Follow your instincts if possible...

It was June 8, 2009. I left my house bit disturbed and I didn’t know why I was so disturbed. I reached my stop to board the cab at my usual place. That day I reached a bit early at my stop. Usually, my eyes would be gazed on the CMH road hoping for the cab to come soon, but that day I was looking towards Sapna Book House road. There, my eyes fell on an old man trying to cross the road, without legs, he was strolling with a wooden plank for support. I have seen this old man before too, in and around CMH road. But that day as I was seeing him crossing the road, I was feeling something is going to happen. I was not able to judge what. There were vehicles stopped at the signal and this old man was very close to them. He crossed half way and still my eyes were not moving away from this old man.

I was still watching that way and there, I screamed. The signal was green and the car driver couldn’t see this old man. It wasn’t the driver’s mistake though. The old man was short enough and he was unnoticed. The car went through the old man and he was stuck within the wheels. Hearing me scream, people who were having tea near the tea stall ran for rescue. They lifted the car and somehow pulled the old man out. The old man was alive at that time but he was completely stuck under the wheels. He was taken to the hospital. I don’t know what happened after that.

I was disturbed the entire day for not being able to save the old man from the accident. It did not get into my mind that signal would go green anytime. Instead of looking at the old man, I would have helped him cross the road. I didn’t. That didn’t get into my mind. For 2 days, even in my dreams this incident was haunting me.

I don’t know what might have happened to the old man. Hope he’s alive. I never checked with the tea stall people about his condition. For the reason, if he’s no more then this would haunt me even more. May be, I was not able to help the old man for this had to happen. May be god wanted to free him from all these burdens. May be, that’s the reason.

It’s been so many days and I never saw that old man around CMH road after the incident. Everyday when I wait for my cab, the CMH signal reminds me of that incident. I wish I would have been able to help the old man. They all need help. It’s just a matter of going forward and giving a helping hand. We won’t lose anything, but still we will be so busy in our own world that we forget such simple things. Same thing happened with me. My instincts were trying to tell me something and I never bothered to give it a thought.

Recently, I asked few of my friends what did they learn from me. And here’s what they learnt from me:

* I learnt to be quiet
* Enjoy life
*I learnt how to sleep like a snail
*Trying to walk and jog like you
*I’m learning to spend like mad when u really need something. To wait for someone without getting discouraged
*To be cool always, facing problem with challenge, friendliness with colleagues
*To sleep like kumbakarna anywhere
*To be cool and happy in life
*I learned that I’m not the only one crazy in love in this world. I found you too missing, remembering and loving someone so madly just like me.

With friends around, I have learnt a lot of things. I learnt to be independent, I learnt to enjoy life, to be cool, I learnt to care, I learnt to be happy and much more. Thank you all for teaching me what’s life.

Friends, you can still add to the list.. :-)

Jogging after a long gap…

It’s after a longggg time I went jogging today. I got home in the evening in the hope of taking a nap as whole day today I was feeling drowsy. But jogging in the evenings till the Sunfeast 10K event was decided already. So at 7 we started jogging towards the park. We took 10 rounds round the park. Though I was so tired, when it comes to running; I wasn’t tired. I could easily take another 10 rounds. And that was refreshing too. My sleep vanished, I was feeling good, contented.

All these preparations are for Sunfeast 10K Run! I am running in the Sunfeast 10K for a cause. To raise money for this cause - please support my Run and make a contribution to Child Rights and You - CRY. I pledge to make a difference to this world!!

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A collection - something nice

I try to talk to you, but I don't know what to say. I am afraid you don't want me to say anything. So I don't. But inside of me there are words waiting to come out. And tell you how I feel - like how I Miss You. And how I love you, despite my broken heart. And how I need you in my life. And especially how much I want you. But those words may forever stay in my heart-locked inside. Sometimes I wonder if there are words locked inside you too... but I'll never know.

I miss you when something really good happens, because you're the one I want to share it with. I miss you when something is troubling me, because you're the only one who understands me so well. I miss you when I laugh and cry, because I know that you're the one who makes my laughter grow and my tears disappear. I miss you all the time thinking of all the wonderful times we spent for those were some of the best memorable times in life.

When I miss you, sometimes I listen to music or look at pictures of you, not to remind me of you but to make me feel as if I'm with you. It makes me forget the distance and capture you.